Tuesday 30th December
With 2015 just around the corner, it seems only natural to reflect on the year that’s been and how I’ve grown and how I haven’t. I’m so grateful I had this opportunity to move overseas and live by myself for a year, work fulltime and cook and clean and pay rent and all those other grown up things that seemed so scary but come so naturally once you have no other option.
I remember talking to my boss Nerissa a couple of years ago and freaking out that I wouldn’t know how to do anything and I wouldn’t even know where to begin and she said to me that when you’re in that situation, you just do it because you don’t have a choice and you’ll just get on with it. And its so true it just happens. You find yourself capable of doing things you really never thought you’d be able to do or that you’d have to have someone teach you to do.
True there have been times at the start where I have found myself eating chicken drenched in soy sauce or even worse uncooked chicken drenched in soy sauce, but food poisoning aside, this is how you learn and I’m so glad I had those experiences now when I’m young and its okay to screw up. In fact, I would like to make as many mistakes as I can possibly make in 2015. Let 2015 be the year of the screw ups! Because I’d rather make them all now and then never make them again later, when you’re older and it’s not as funny any more.
Looking back at the year that’s past, I thought I’d make a funny Top Ten list of all the things I did this year that I’ve never done before:
- Drove 550km in one day in Tasmania in my first ever experience driving long distance, stuck between two trucks at 140km per hour on the highway at 9.30pm with my friend yelling that this is exactly what it looks like in movies when the car gets hijacked
- Accidently dropped my toothbrush in the toilet and had to go to work without brushing my teeth because I had no time to buy another one on the way
- Had a tradie call me up personally to laugh at me because the hinges on my headboard came off and he had to come in and fix it (it was just wear and tear people!)
- Tore my skirt at work trying to step over the wet floor chain in the kitchen and then trying to cello tape the seam back together
- Found myself doing a hook turn in South Melbourne when I was following someone and started freaking out while a friend snapchatted my breakdown to his girlfriend
- Planned trips to Sydney, Tasmania and Thailand by myself and kicked ass at it whooo
- Did pull ups while I was tipsy and still beat half the guys there
- Had my face licked by a dingo – I think it thought I was a baby
- Eaten pancakes for breakfast, lunch and dinner because I was too lazy to cook one weekend
- And the hardest thing of them all: didn’t see my brother for 8 months
This year has been awesome in the way that it has made me much more confident about my own capabilities and my independence. I am so grateful to all the people who have supported me and given me advice like my parents, my brother, my cousin, my team at work, my boss from Auckland, my grandmas cousin and other colleagues, friends, and family.
While I’ve gotten a few things right, I’ve also gotten plenty more wrong, and I am happy that the universe threw them my way this year so that I will hopefully learn from it and not make the same stupid mistakes next time round. Probably not best to list my faults and advertise them, let’s keep this one a mental list shall we.
There are 47 days left until I return home to my family, and it will be strange in a way to not have to cook, and have someone look after me when I’m sick, and people drive me to places and pick me up from work. But it will be a welcome respite for a while. My journey began this year but it’s not over yet and I have no idea what life has in store for me. While this time last year, the unknown would phase me, now that bend in the road is just another mystery to look forward to. I believe this is called progress.
2015 is a year filled with promise and I hope that many of my dreams come true this year. I hope that God gives me the wisdom to make good decisions about my career, the friends I make, and my relationships with my family. I hope that I am more discerning in the year to come and less forthright. And I hope that people appreciate everything I have to give and my place in their lives and that I appreciate their place in mine.